This week... I ran into her at a Restaurant by accident... it really affected me, as I think it has also affected her as well... very emotional... I don't know if this is good or bad. I do feel it was good to see her and know that she still has feelings for me and I do have a lot of feelings and emotions for her, and still care for her a great deal. However, we can't go any where with this feelings and emotions.... She did send me this song (chipmunk version) and chatted with me... this is the first time in months... what ever it is, I am still moving forward toward my goals... I do feel stronger, better, and confident... and got lots to do... and will do it!

I keep hearing this song in my mind... over and over again...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6ZKuSKvtZI&feature=related

With You

It is just an incredible feeling when I am (was) with Siu-C-Mui... there is just no one in this world can affect me like she does... SCM.

"...你是如此的難以忘記
浮浮沉沉的在我心裡
改變自己需要多少勇氣
翻騰的心情該如何平息..."

~ 情歌王

My Love My Fate LIVE KTV ~ by Leo Ku ~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=llSIQwDS278&NR=1

My love my fate you will fade away　以後隔天與地I love I hate I'll miss you always　我永遠亦愛你太美好的東西　會走　還未愛夠了你　怎放手從來不肯假想　失去你那感受　我這對腳　怎麼走從來並未練習過溫柔　遲學你或已經沒法接受然後你會說我跟她分左與右　誰希罕這種手拖手My love my fate you will fade away　再沒有戀愛味I love I hate I'll always be afraid　永遠也害怕你我要首先講聲　我走　還是愛到你說　請你走如果講一聲　請照顧　我感受　我最怕你講出口從來並未練習過溫柔　遲學你或已經沒法接受然後你會說我跟她分左與右　誰希罕這種手拖手下次開心已要靠自己　下次頂多飾演好知己其實再次見你　真需要　靠演技　也要你我好心地My love my fate you will fade away過去當做看戲　世界當沒有你　Ooh......

"Sometimes, the greatest Love Story doesn't have a Happy Ending... Forever Love will be Forever Frozen in the past..." It is only recently when I understand there is a type of Forever Love that is like this... it is sad, but it is also reality.

"If you truly love and care for her well being, then let her go..." It is only today, when I truly understand this... it is sad, but if I love her... I not only do this, but truly understand this...

My Love... My Fate???

I don't know why I can love someone so, so much... but this is the one person who I can't be with and will not be together romantically in the long term... if this is the true reality, then I will accept it and I don't want to even meet her... but why does fate put us together three different times, AND added so, so much connections, feelings, emotions and romantically chemistry even the very first time I looked her in her eyes...

I don't understand... if there are so much chemistry in the universe to put us together... then why we can't be together... why... why.... why... why... is it because Tong Hua can't ever have happy ending..... ever!!!!!! Fate why do you want to screw with our hearts!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjS4xl8yrSU&feature=related

還未愛夠了你 怎放手

Why does sad, love songs are so close to reality.... 太美好的東西　會走　還未愛夠了你　怎放手... perhaps it is not reality.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=llSIQwDS278&NR=1

愛得太遲

Can Fate be this sad.... 愛得太遲

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yywgYcKuhSA&feature=related